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In contrast with most stories that have been read within the context of the class, the outstanding fantastic element is not only explicit in the first paragraph but within the title “A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings” by Gabriel Garcia Marquez.

The troublesome thing about this story is the emotions, resonance, and empathy towards the old man that this story elicits, the way that this “angel” is treated. A fear and fascination of the unknown turn into ignorance and mistreatment, putting him in a chicken coop and later charging for admission to see him as if he was a circus animal. A being that is usually regarded as sacred and with glory is deemed dirty with parasites and “half-plucked” in Marquez’s rendition. The old man is exploited for money, miracles, and entertainment. Moreover, it is because he is not the perfect or assumed vision of an angel, exemplified by the priest Father Gonzaga and then the townspeople, that this once in a lifetime experience is taken for granted and abused. He is then later forgotten, except when he was directly interfering with them, as an annoying child does.

“Salt Slow”

While reading “Salt Slow,” I instantly noticed many similarities between the story and Julia Armfield’s other work, “Smack.” It seems as though this collection of her stories have a recurring theme of ocean life or the ocean in general; however, there were more noticeable similarities between “Salt Slow” and “Smack.” At the start of the two stories, they both describe an ocean organism, washed up and decaying. They describe the ocean, what time of day it is, and the bodies of the creatures.

The jellyfish come with the morning – a great beaching, bodies black on sand. The oceans empties, a thousand dead and dying invertebrates, jungled tentacles and fine, fragile membranes blanketing the shore two miles in each direction. They are translucent, almost spectral, as though the sea as exorcised its ghosts. Drowned in air, they break apart and bleed their interiors. A saturation, leeching down into the earth. (129)

They find the lobsters in white water. Bobbing belly-up, claws thrown out, like a strewing of tulips. That they float is unsurprising. The salt is heavy here – dead sea, its bodies buoyant. In the thin morning, the lobster shells gleam a slick vermilion, spreading southward like a bleeding on the tide. (169)

Upon further reading, there were more similarities between the two stories, but they were handled different between the characters. For instance, in “Smack” the male character that initiated the conversation about the group of jellyfish can be described as dominance due to him stating false information, passing it off as true. His female co-worker corrects him and tension between the two characters are noted. In “Salt Slow,” the male character merely asks the female character for the answer, rather than just assume and state the information as correct. The tension is not present during the little exchange during this story.

And in local news, a shoal of jellyfish has been causing consternation for tourists at one of the more popular pleasure beaches. Certainly not what you’d expect coming up for a long weekend, is it, Cathy? – Actually, Tim I think you’ll find a group of jellyfish is called a ‘smack.’ (130)

What’s the name for a group of lobsters? he asks now, dumping an armload at her feet. You know, like a school or a smack. His sleeves are soaking to the elbows, fingertips already splitting from the salt. She tells him it’s a risk and he laughs his usual brief laugh, takes up his apple knife, and slits a lobster from tail to sternum. (171)

Another recurring theme, or aspect that repeats throughout “Salt Slow” is the passage of time and importance of weekdays. At first, the days of the week were not significant, the female protagonist merely just describes the days as they pass; categorizing the days depending on the description or what characteristics the days contained.

They label their days as they find them, names to correspond with the poem his mother used to recite to new parents on the obsterics ward – Monday’s child fair of face, Tuesday’s child is full of grace. Days of hard squalls and difficult rowing they call Saturdays, days of sunnier aspect they designate Mondays. Thursdays occur only when the horizon seems so distant as to be impossible. There are very few Sundays. (170)

As the story prolongs and we journey throughout her pregnancy with her, we see the importance of the days link with her overwhelming emotions of loss, abandonment, and pain. In the beginning, the passage of time seems less important in comparison to the chores that needed to be done or survival on the open water.

The numbering of days has been gradually sacrificed to more pressing concerns; the counting up of cans and bottles, the maintenance of nets, the catching and drying out of fish and strange crustaceans. Time, in its clearest sense, has been abandoned somewhere in the long sleeps and the hourless drifting. (169)

Towards the end, we see the shift that makes the importance of which day of the week it was, or described to be, more prominent. With the loss of her second child, or what we thought was the loss after her partner “killed” it, the creature (her child) returns. She remembers the pain and significance of both pregnancies, which she loses both.

Somewhere low in her hips, an ache is spreading, though it is only the ghost of a pain, a shade of something already passed. She remembers it was a Tuesday on land when her first child bled out of her, though by the time the second came on the water, she was no longer very certain of time. I’m glad you came back, she wants to say, whatever day it is. (190)

Her mother gives her the impression that with love, comes pain, therefore the protagonist believes that she is in love when the pain of her love is persistent throughout the relationship. She expresses her fear of abandonment in the beginning of their relationship.

Fall in love with someone who makes you ache, her mother had always told her. When I fell in love with your father my appendix exploded. I think it was the stress. (177)

When they had first fallen in love, she had kissed him with an intensity which imagined him already halfway out the door. A grasping period – nights spent holding him overlong and too tightly, the ravenous dig of her fingers into skin. Over time, this sense of frenzy had eased as she had gradually grown more confident in his staying power. It had still been easier to sleep with one hand at his wrist, but the depth of her panic had subsided a little. Most mornings, it had been possible to wake up without immediately reaching for him across the center of the bed. (187)

In her time of need, the miscarriage of her first pregnancy that neither of them had wanted, she had been alone that morning.

Ultimately, of course, she had only been pregnant a grand total of three months and seven days, the first time around. Even so, the memory of that morning had persisted will beyond the bleeding. A very slender sort of betrayal, the deliberate absence from a room. (188)

One other note to mention, when her partner informs his mother, a midwife, about the pregnancy, she automatically assumes that the protagonist was reckless and did it purposely, blaming her for the miscarriage. It seems as though, the one person that could help them with the situation, blames her for the miscarriage, instead of help her in her time of loss and stress.

His mother was a midwife and had asked him loudly on the phone whether she had drunk a lot of alcohol or taken too many baths, done something foolish or intentional to cause this catastrophic wringing out. You tell me she knew she was pregnant, that you both knew. You have to appreciate what that makes me think. He had scrabbled to mute the speakerphone and later had suggested the trip as a way to distract them both. (178)

 

 

In Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s “A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings” he is writing it in a very similar style as Franz Kafka’s  “The Metamorphosis.” As they both have normal people turning into something different and it becomes a struggle for them to get up and do what they usually do in their everyday life.  

        “He had to go very close to see that it was an old man, a very old man, lying face down in the mud, who, in spite of his tremendous efforts, couldn’t get up, impeded by his enormous wings.” (217)

  Marquez must have an understanding of angels, as it was written that the angel fell into the backyard of a sick child.   He wanted to show that angels were sent to you in a time of need. He could have also sent the angel to this family so that they could make money off of him, as they could have been in a time of need. Gabriel was having the neighbor blaming it on something else, was saying it was just fate bringing someone like him to their house.

“He’s an angel, she told them. He must have been coming for the child, but the poor fellow is so old that the rain knocked him down.” (218)

    The woman who turned into a spider is also similar to “The Metamorphosis,” as she wasn’t born like a spider. By this woman turning into a spider for disobeying her parents show that her parents also had something mysterious about them and makes one wonders what happened to the parents for them to be able to make her change into something else as well.  

      “ It so happened that during those days, among so many other carnival attractions, there arrived in town the traveling show of the woman who had been changed into a spider for having disobeyed her parents.” (222)

 

In “A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings,” Gabriel Garcia Marquez shows how humans are always looking for the next interesting thing. When the old man is found, many automatically assume he is an angel. Some people turn to him for miracles, hoping he will heal them, but more interestingly, many people do not seem to care that a holy being has arrived and treat him cruelly. Even Pelayo “did not have the heart to club him to death,” showing that he at least considered it, and later they “decided to put the angel on a raft with fresh water and provisions for three days and leave him to his fate on the high seas” (218). People came to see him, not as a religious figure, but rather to “[toss] him things to eat through the openings in the wire as if he weren’t a supernatural creature but a circus animal” (219). They did not care about his health or safety, instead viewing him simply as a new form of entertainment.

This is further shown with the arrival of the woman who had been turned into a spider. People immediately became more invested in seeing her than the angel: “A spectacle like that, full of so much human truth and with such a  fearful lesson, was bound to defeat without even trying that of a haughty angel who scarcely deigned to look at mortals” (222). Despite believing him to be a religious figure, the people are not scared or in awe of him, and instead move on to the next best thing. Even at the end of the story when the angel flies away, Elisenda watches him leave “because then he was no longer an annoyance in her life but an imaginary dot on the horizon of the sea” (225). The angel goes from being an annoyance to something considered imaginary, something that may never have been there at all, and something that may ultimately be forgotten.

This goes against everything we might expect if people were to find an angel. We would expect people to treat the angel with kindness or reverence, to become more religious. In addition to this, the treatment of the angel in the story makes me curious about its subtitle, “A Tale for Children.” Most children’s stories, especially fairytales, tend to provide some sort of lesson. If this were like most children’s tales, the people who treated the old man like a circus animal would have gotten some kind of karma, and the story would have ended on a much happier note than Elisenda still thinking of the angel as an annoyance. Perhaps what makes this a tale for children is not the idea that it is a fairytale, but instead the fact that it shows how humans truly behave.

As an ex-Catholic, this story captured my attention from the very beginning. It feels realistic that many people would consider the winged man to be an angel and treat him reverently, coming from miles around just to catch a glimpse of him. None of them question the fantastical nature of the winged man’s existence because, as religious people, they have long-since accepted that such creatures exist. Pelayo and Elisenda, however, see the angel as little more than an oddity that they can use to generate a profit. For most of the story, we see them having to fight for everything they have, including their child’s life; it makes sense that they would not find much comfort in religion because of how they have always made their own luck—God never handed them anything. They are initially cautious of the winged man and at first believe him to be the victim of a shipwreck; this shows how, unlike the visitors who later come to see the winged man, they are both logical thinkers.

This story feels quite different from all the others we have read this semester. Religion is an established and accepted system in our society, and there have been many alleged sightings of saints, angels, and miracles from all around the world. If a person were to say that they believe in vampires or shapeshifters or anything like that, they would either get laughed out of the room or tossed into a mental institution; however, if a person were to say that they believe in angels or demons or any other religious being, they would be respected for this belief. While this story definitely counts as fantastic, it still feels plausible in a way—not because of the possibility that angels exist, but because there are people who already believe that they exist. Each reaction from each character (religious or not) feels like it could be the reaction of someone in our own world if a winged man were to suddenly appear somewhere one day.

Three of Julia Armfield’s stories in a row have been about showcasing how fragile relationships can be: “Granite,” in which Maggie falls too hard for a man and he turns to stone;  “Smack,” in which Nicola hides out in her husband’s beach house and contemplates their marriage; and “Cassandra After,” in which the narrator reminisces about her relationship with her girlfriend, Cassandra. All of these relationships ended in death or the woman ending up alone.

One thing the three women all have in common is that they were told not to love who they ended up loving. Maggie in “Granite” was warned not to love a man because they were too fragile. Nicola is told by her sister she can’t be alone because she needs someone to take car of her, and the narrator in “Cassandra After” tells herself she won’t love Cassandra. In the end, though, all three women face the consequences. Maggie turns her boyfriend to stone; Nicola eventually leaves the beach house after the divorce; and the narrator looses Cassandra.

What I found interesting was the difference in characterization between “Granite” and “Smack” and “Cassandra After.” Maggie and Nicola are more bothered by their situations than any other minor character is, while Cassandra’s girlfriend tells the story very flippantly. Every other character in “Cassandra After” is obviously upset that this woman died, but the narrator just finishes the story by telling us she can’t message a woman on a dating app back, because she is sweeping up her dead girlfriend’s bones. Everything described in this story is described nonchalantly. This is interesting because it’s one of the more fantastic of the three. Was this meant to simply be eerie, or is there a deeper message of “forget the past and move on” to this tone?

There is one thing that Nicola reiterates throughout the story: her ability to take care of herself. Unfortunately, it is patently obvious that Nicola possesses no practical skills. In the middle of her  divorce with her husband, Daniel, she lays siege to the beach house he insists upon having, holing herself up inside. However, she can’t turn the power on because she doesn’t know how to work the fuse box; she didn’t think to pack suitable food and everything becomes stale and moldy; and no matter what she tries, she can’t remove her wedding ring. And yet this inept manner of Nicola is not entirely her fault; it is a product of her childhood:

“Before their father died, he had called her the princess, the precious cargo. Pressed his hands together and mimed an attendant’s bow.” (145)

This upbringing does nothing to endear her to her sister Cece, who thinks Nicola loves having other people take care of her and is acting childish by refusing to leave the beach house.

Because of Nicola’s inability to turn the power on, she has nothing to do but think of the deterioration of her marriage. But it is during these contemplations that she realizes Daniel wasn’t as good a man or husband as she had believed:

“Her type of television is the sort that Daniel says speaks to a weakness of character…Daniel has already gutted the place of anything really worth taking…an exercise in bare-faced deception. Daniel had gone ahead and sold the Persian rugs and a good percentage of the silver before even asking for a divorce.” (131, 135)

Daniel and Cece, and most likely everyone she knows, thinks she is incapable of doing anything on her own. And yet her refusal to leave the beach house is an act of defiance. It is unexpected of her. She smacks back at all the critiques of Cece and Daniel by this action. Even when she receives a court order to leave the house, she leaves it defiantly:

Daniel’s lawyer will not, she imagines, appreciate the mess when he returns tomorrow, nor will he appreciate the empty house or the fact that she has left the front door open, thrown the windows wide on both the north and southern sides, left the key under the mat.” (146)

When Nicola sits on the back porch contemplating her marriage, she also observes the incalculable amounts of jellyfish washing up on shore dying or dead. People have all sorts of theories about it — teenagers take videos and pictures, tourists complain, TV stations turn it into a show, and a cleanup crew burns them –but no one seems sad, distressed, or disturbed by this occurrence. Nicola states that jellyfish take up to fifty minutes to die, which leaves me wondering how no one had the kindness to help them before they suffocated from the air. The only thing that made those passages a bit bearable was the complete smack-down by Cathy of her co-host Tim every time he speaks about the jellyfish.

 

In “Difficult at Parties,” a woman experiences a sexual trauma and, while trying to rebuild her sex life with her partner, can suddenly hear the internal thoughts of actors in porn videos. Machado takes otherworldly scenarios and brings them into our world to critique the intricacies of the feminine experience. “Difficult at Parties” begins in the aftermath of a home invasion/rape, and circles around the main character who needs to re-set her own emotional boundaries. These boundaries which are repeatedly dismissed and violated by her boyfriend in his attempts to help her. Machado’s execution and word selection when telling us how the character feels after being raped is incredibly powerful. She doesn’t give us courtroom scenes or medical exams, simply the tiny moments that add up to the day after, the week after, the month after, when your body has healed but fear and fury sit just under your skin. When people you do know expect you to get over it, and people who don’t know are confused when you flinch at their touch. It’s a triggering story for some women but takes the protagonist in enough odd directions that it’s still readable, but difficult to swallow.

 

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Chaotic Reading

havana-rabbitInsecurity and uncertainty are two main themes that come out throughout the story “The Resident.” Not only is the uncertainty obvious inspections, but it is also written in where the readers become uncertain and insecure in the reading of the text. “The woman I did and did not recognize called herself by a name that I immediately forgot. I do not mean that I wasn’t paying attention; rather, she said her name and as my mind closed around it, it slipped away like mercury from probing fingers.” At two points in the story, our narrator — who has an issue remembering things as we see through no one who is important to her gets a name — mentions a line along the lines of deserving better than her. This is where the insecurities first show up in the story. The insecurities usually remain closely related to the uncertainty of what she remembers. Slowly, the narrator slips into a madness like state. She begins to question everything, including her wife.

Both insecurity and uncertainty are common in life, and this is clearly a story with realistic characters, yet the narrator — the writer — is the only one who seems to be as affected by Devil’s Throat to this extent. Lydia asks our narrator at once point, “’Do you ever worry,’ she asked me, ‘that you’re the madwoman in the attic?'” This ‘madwoman in the attic’ comment shows up more than once. Part of the craziness of this story is the repetition of small things. The madwoman, the rabbit, speeding, and fevers are recurring more than once in the story, leading the readers to question the sanity of our narrator and if she is a reliable narrator.

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The beginning of “Difficult at Parties” introduces what we assume to be a domestic abuse scenario where the woman is the abuser, causing bruises, demanding, and yelling. Moreover, the male, as we know at the time, has the brunt of the abuse.

However, the assumption is pushed aside as we learn that the narrator is a victim of a crime, and her pain and lashing were a result of this crime.

We get hints that it is a possible home invasion or a rape when she asks Paul to lock and re-lock her door, to unplug the tub of water she is laying in, and their reaction to an accidental brush of skin leaves readers questioning their relationship. (p. 222)

Nevertheless, we also have this interest and desire from the narrator for something new to try, sexually with her partner (p. 223-225), and her perverted watching of Jane and Jill’s sexual intimacy where “A pleasurable twinge curls inside of me,” (p.230).

Interestingly enough, we do not learn about a possible fantastic, or that there could be a fantastic element until almost 15 pages in when we find that the narrator is hearing “imagined” voices while watching sex tapes.

With this fantastic element, it is also essential to recognize that there are no quotation marks for any of the conversation that is said to happen.

And then it is not until almost two pages later that we begin to understand that the voices she hears are the thoughts of other people through a screen. “A woman mentally corrects a man who keeps referring to her pussy. Cunt, she thinks, […]” (p. 236).

Madwomen

“The Resident” is a short story with many twists and turns. The main character is struggling with multiple difficulties during her time at the residency: sickness, temptation, loneliness, social conflict, and flashbacks from the troubles she faced in her youth.

Throughout her time at the residency, the main character began to create a sharp eye and a keen observation toward everything that surrounded her.

I was reminded, for the umteenth time, of Victor Shklovsky’s idea of defamiliarization; of zooming in so close to something, and observing it so slowly, that it begins to warp, and change, and acquire new meaning. When I’d first begun to experience this phenonmenon, I’d been too young to understand what it was; certainly too young to consult a reference book. The first time, I lay down on the floor examining the metal-and-rubber foot of our family refridgerator. wreathed in dust and human hair. and from this point all other objects begin to change. (198-199)

This made me think of the discussion we had in class about anxious objects, and how we can search for a simple, aesthetic value in the most boring and ordinary objects. I suppose some readers could argue that this could be a breaking point and it even could be used as a premise for an argument that disputes how she truly is a “madwomen” however, I think it is quite lovely how she finds such grand and beautiful detail in ordinary objects.

“The foot, instead if being insignificant, one of four, et cetera, suddenly became everything: a stoic little home at the base of a large mountain, from which one could see a tiny curl of smoke and glinting, illuminated windows, a home from which a her would emerge, eventually. Every nick on the foot was a balcony or a door. The detritus beneath the fridge became a wrecked, ravaged landscape, the expanse of kitchen tile a rambling kingdom waiting for salvation. (199)

In “Difficult at Parties,” there is a sense of ambiguity about the narrator’s recent trauma, although just enough is given to glimpse into what may have happened. She is bruised, there is pain, a cop calls, and it seems like there is a care taken concerning the sex life she has with Paul. It is interesting, being put in a room in the mind of a traumatized woman because she never outright states the violence enacted upon her. Instead she is concerned with the door being locked or the bruises on her body and the way they fade. She is concerned about the camera. Being seen in such a way seems to frighten the narrator to the point where she steals that camera and uses it on her own terms. In having the reader substitute whatever physical violence we see fits, there is both a deeper connection with the narrator as well as a sort of voyeuristic element.

However, there is a way that trying to rebuild her intimate life with Paul enables her to see into the rooms of other people. When the narrator begins trying to watch pornography as a way to ease back into a normal sex life, she hears the thoughts of the actors. She isn’t able to be a simple bystander (or voyeur). Nobody wants to hear to internal monologue of actors in porn, but maybe that’s the point. Being a victim of violence of any kind, let alone what is implied to be sexual violence, creates a sort of attention to detail. Consciously or not the mind becomes so concerned with self preservation and preventing that sort of event from happening again, it observes everything with care. And so does the narrator’s mind, although it presses even further than seeing body language. She enters their mental rooms, and it kills the party for her.

Memories Lost

unnamedWhile reading “The Resident,” I concluded that this is one of the most interesting stories we have read this semester. The complexity of the main character struggling to find her memories while juggling her writing and anti-social tendencies was really interesting. It left me, as a reader, wondering if the main character had experienced something that made her a nervous person, or if that was just her personality. The omitting of her memories made me even more curious. I found myself wanting to know what was so special about her time as a girl scout. There were so many things combined in this story, that I had no difficulty getting through it. The fascination of what was to come had me excited to keep reading.

Outside of the main character’s fascinating inner turmoil, I was really struck by how the other characters played into the story. While they weren’t overly developed because the story focuses on the main character, it was still fascinating how they are introduced with their own artistry. The characters almost seem as if they know more about her than they let on, mentioning the familiar quotes and other things regarding her past. The other characters help us to understand the main character’s predicament a little more and gives readers more regarding her memories through the television show she saw.

“”I said, not everybody’s cut out for this, I guess.” It was the first sentence of hers that stayed in my mind the way speech should. “Is that– from something?” I asked her.”

Something else that caught my attention was the TV show with her memories. I was curious as to why this was included. I felt as if the memories tangent was never fully resolved. While it does reveal some of her memories, such as her sleepwalking and the revealing of the riddle, it left me confused by the end.

 

Parties Secret Sides

Carmen Maria Machado’s  Difficult at Parties is making the reading constantly having questions about what is going to happen.  Machado is doing this on purpose, as she is enticing you to continue reading to see if the questions you are forming are answered later in her writing.  She is wanting you to question what is happening to this person when she is going to parties and what is happening possibly after the parties she is attending. 

 Around his eye, a smoky-dark bruise is forming. (220)

Machado starts Difficult at Parties off with a mystery plot of why one of the main characters is in the hospital.  She uses that to grab your attention and then continues to bring in more of a plot of what could have happened.  She brings in the wife getting drunk at the house warming party, which hints that when she is at other parties she could be causing difficulties by getting drunk, so drunk that she doesn’t know what’s happening.  Which then brings up what happened to her that would have been the reason to go to the hospital. She then brings up a point that hints at a possible rape situation that could have been a horrible situation for her health and done something bad to her. 

An orgy, now. (238)

Carmen Maria Machado also uses repetition so that you don’t question things that she wants to be known from it’s first mention.  She is also using repetition to foreshadow what could possibly be happening in the story. She wants certain words or phrases to stick out to you, so that you can use this to also help lead you down the right path of what is going to happen and that can help you form an opinion on what is going to happen.  

 Tuesday is speaking to me, in Tuesday’s voice. Open up, it says. Open Up. (219)

 

Carmen Maria Machado’s “The Resident” exists in the realm of psychological horror. In an interview with The Atlantic, Machado states, “In my work, I think non-realism can be a way to insist on something different. It’s a way to tap into aspects of being a woman that can be surreal or somehow liminal — certain experiences that can feel, even, like horror.” This comes through in almost if not all of the stories in this collection but feels certainly true with “The Resident,” which, as hinted in the text, relates to the “mad woman in the attic” trope.

From the beginning, Machado infuses her story with elements that are typical of the horror genre. We begin with our narrator driving alone to a new place and stopping in a small, dead town:

“The town was rundown and gray, like so many of the old coal and steel towns that dotted the state. I’d describe the houses that lined the main thoroughfare as ramshackle, but ramshackle suggests a charm that these lacked. A traffic light hung above the lone intersection, and except for a cat that darted behind a garbage can, there was no movement.” (170)

She then has a strange interaction with the man at the gas station, we come to learn that there was an “incident” that happened at the nearby Girl Scout camp during her childhood (leaving us wondering what this incident was and how it is going to relate to the story), and then right before she arrives at the residency, she hits a rabbit with her car:

“I got out of the car and looked beneath the chassis. There, the black, lifeless eyes of a rabbit met mine. The lower half of her body was missing, as neatly as if she were a sheet of paper that had been ripped in two.” (175)

This is another typical trope of horror movies, as the protagonists often crash their car or hit an animal before the real chaos begins. The narrator herself even wonders if this is an omen.

It is after she arrives at the residency that we begin seeing elements that relate more specifically to the “mad woman” trope. We sense the narrator’s nervousness from the beginning when she is trying to park her car:

“Two cars–one ancient and dirty blue, the other red and glinting in the sunlight–were parked haphazardly next to the hotel. I pulled in beside the red car, and then, nervous, pulled out again and parked next to the blue car instead. I suddenly felt self-conscious about the number of possessions in my trunk and backseat.” (176)

Her feelings only increase as the story progresses, as she has  a vision of a hand reaching out from under her bed and grabbing her ankle (180), wonders why she hasn’t received any letters from her wife and ponders whether her wife would love her more if she were a “more relaxed” version of herself (181), and gets sick and relates it to a time she got sick at camp (190). She also continues to think about omens:

“The surprises came all at once: First, the earth was not as hard as I had imagined it; it yielded as if it were loam. The sun, which had been hidden behind Anele’s body, was now uncovered and glowed between her legs like some mythical entreaty. I heard the dry click of the shutter, the sound of some insect biting down. There was lightning then, distinct, forking across the sky and over the distant hotel. So many omens.” (194)

By now, both the narrator and the readers are expecting something bad to happen. It feels as if it’s just a matter of time.

It is only a few pages later that the madwoman in the attic is brought up in relation to the narrator and the story she is writing. Lydia says:

“You know. That old trope. Writing a story where the female protagonist is utterly batty. It’s sort of tiresome and regressive and, well, done… don’t you think? And the mad lesbian, isn’t that a stereotype as well? Do you ever wonder about that? I mean, I’m not a lesbian, I’m just saying.” (203)

After this, our narrator becomes more troubled, stating that “Here, at Devil’s Throat, everything felt wrong,” and we even get a parallel to the dead rabbit at the beginning of the story. As the story ends, the narrator begins to spiral into her own thoughts more and more and ends up referring to herself as a “madwoman in her own attic” and throws her novel notes and laptop into the lake before leaving the residency.

Because of all of the psychological horror elements presented in the story, it would have been easy for Machado to present her narrator as crazy, to make us think she was delusional by the end of the story. However, no matter how “crazy” her actions may seem from the outside, the narrator’s decisions and thoughts all seem very rational. This, in turn, turns the madwoman trope on its head. Our narrator does not seem crazy; she is instead someone caught in battle with her own mind.

downloadCarmen Maria Machado takes the phrase “Real Women Have Bodies” literally as her story with that title follows an outbreak of mysterious disappearances by women, but the women who “disappear” do not vanish, just merely exist as a spiritual entity that cannot be touched by the physical world. Through the protagonist and her relationship with Petra, the amount of time a woman takes to “disappear” is revealed as Petra goes through the process. Ironically, her name derives from petros, which is a Greek word for “stone” or “rock.”

Machado used this story to make a bold statement that the universe does not see people who do not dress feminine as women; therefore, they vanish from the title. Dresses are an iconic example of femininity, therefore their spirits would cling (or rather feel attached) to the symbol as that was who they were/are: a woman.

One of the women who did not vanish was Gizzy, her boss at Glam. However, it is revealed that her daughter, unfortunately, did not have the same fate and ultimately “vanished.”

She is my mother’s age, maybe a little older, but her face is strangely youthful and unlined. She paints her mouth matte peach every day, so evenly and cleanly that if you look at her too hard, you might faint. I think her eyeliner is tattooed on her lids. (125)

Petra, however, is referred to in the exact opposite way. They describe her style are more grunge, less feminine.

Casey referred to her as a dyke once during a smoke break, but he’s too afraid of her to say anything to her face. (127)

download (3)Machado also made references to other female characters or myths including selkies, Banshee, and a character from Hamlet called Ophelia. She made several references and comparisons when describing the types of dresses, colors, and fabrics in the store to the ocean.

imagesThese two stories by Carmen Maria Machado were paired together for a very specific reason; they have the same message. While “Real Women Have Bodies” is more about women losing themselves and fading away into nothingness (with only their souls remaining), “Eight Bites” is about one woman in particular who’s unhappy with her body and the follow up choices she makes.

Society has influenced women and how we see ourselves so much that we feel we need to change, but we knew that already. Society says to women, “Do this. No, not like that.” It makes it nearly impossible for women to love themselves as they are. “Eight Bites” does an great job translating this. The narrator is still haunted by the ghost of her old self, always reminding her of what she used to look like. We see the narrator kicking and abusing her old self, only to be greeted by it on her dying day. She has made piece with it, regretting her decision and learning to love her old self. In “Real Women Have Bodies”, the women who fade away cling to the dresses the narrator’s lover’s mother sews. Even when the narrator shears the dresses to shreds, the spirits still refuse to leave.

After reading these stories, I listened to the song “Arcade” by Duncan Laurence. While the lyrics were originally intended to be about a broken relationship, I took it as a relationship with the self because these stories were fresh in my mind. Especially when it got to the line, “loving you is a losing game”, it flowed differently in my head. It reminded me that no matter what, women will always have difficulty loving themselves. And if we do, it could be too late, and we could already fading away. This can also relate back to almost every other story in Her Body and Other Parties because almost every relationship doesn’t work out; something happens to one of them. Either they die, turn to stone, or are left alone. Women in relationships with others or themselves always lose something, whether that be themself or their partner.

The Female Influence

Carmen Maria Machado’s “Eight Bites” is a lyrical story told by a woman who has become dissatisfied with her body, and she decides to follow her sisters by having bariatric surgery. She wants to be “normal” like her mother had been, although her mother was not normal, as we see by her taking only eight bites of food. “She always said eight bites are all you need, to get the sense of what you are eating.” (pg.151) Society has pressured women into believing they must look a certain way, weigh a specific amount, and wear a particular size to be attractive. Many women will go to extreme measures to live up to these expectations, from fad diets, bulimia, and anorexia to bariatric surgery. These actions, in reality, are usually empty and unsuccessful in finding the happiness that is being sought.

A body ruined from childbirth and her daughter’s lack of involvement in her life have diminished the narrator’s self-worth and prompted her grief. “When did my child sour? I didn’t remember the process, the top-down tumble from sweetness to curdled anger. She was furious constantly; she was all accusation.” (pg.158) Relationships between women, whether it be mothers, daughters, sisters, or female friends, influence who women want to become and how they should look.

One might think that the fantastic is the presence that has occupied — or once did — the homes of the sisters. I would have to disagree. My reasoning is that addictions, whether food, alcohol or drugs, are lifelong struggles that can haunt a person and are a common occurrence for those who suffer and struggle with dependencies. However, I believe the bizarre is that women seek happiness by the standards set by society only to realize that we must find ways to love ourselves as we are.

The narrator envisions her entity staying with her to walk her off at her death. She states, “She will outlive my daughter, and my daughter’s daughter, and the earth will teem with her and her kind, their inscrutable forms and unknowable destinies.” (pg.167) This statement implies that the chain will not break, and society will continue to control the expectations of what makes a woman beautiful.

When I was reading this story, I struggled with whether the procedure was a good or bad thing. My feminist brain told me it was bad; no woman should have to get a surgery to love herself and her body, especially a surgery that renders her unable to eat properly. But on the other hand, the narrator seemed genuinely more happy after the procedure. She still had struggles, but she was a new, happier woman, and, honestly, I think a lot of women (myself included) can understand the decision she made and would actually make the same one.

It took me a while to realize that the procedure wasn’t about loving herself; it was about losing herself. She was proud to be a new woman, but that’s exactly what she was: completely new. She had become a cookie-cutter girl like her sisters. Sure, they were maybe happy, but they weren’t the people they used to be. She had lost the imprint of having a child on her body; she had lost her ability to eat food she loved and used to not be able to get enough of. Her comparison of her last meal to death row was very accurate. The girl she had been was going to die and become re-birthed as  a barbie.

The part of her that fell away (the disembodied part I guess) was the part of her that was truly her. The scene of her kicking and screaming at it was her finally banishing what made her different and, in her mind, undesirable. It’s only at the end of the story, and the end of her life, that she realizes it wasn’t worth it and she should’ve loved and embraced every part of her body and life.

Not So Glam

shopping mall Machado’s “Real Women Have Bodies” opens with a jarring sentence by the narrator: “I used to think my place of employment, Glam, looked like the view from inside a casket.”  The reader instantly knows this is a dark tale and expects death, or something that resembles it, as the story unfolds. The protagonist lives a life that is all too common in today’s society. She recently graduated college with a useless degree and student loan debts and must work in a fashion boutique in the mall, a dead-end job. As the narrator tells Petra, “It could be worse. It’s just that I’m broke as hell and it’s not like this is what I wanted to be doing with my life, but a lot of people have it worse.” (133) Though the narrator leaves the boutique job, she lands yet another dead-end one cleaning the local condiment factory at night. Machado shows the ugly side of education: a useless degree, living on a tight budget due to student loan debts, and the inability to have the dream job. Furthermore, Machado gives a glimpse into the production process of business. Many people don’t think or care about how products are made or from where they come; they just want the product to be perfect. With Petra’s mother, we see the dedication and hard work she does to make each prom dress perfect. She is absorbed by her work, sewing the dresses even at night, working almost mechanically at her sewing machine.

The fading of the girls and women make a dark story even darker. For reasons no one can explain, the women of the world slowly fade, but do not disappear; it seems as though only their soul remains. We don’t get a good look at this mystery in the beginning, only from a viral video and the TV. It only becomes real to us when it affects the narrator through her relationship to Petra. The narrator sees how the dresses are made, how the fading women desire to be stitched into clothing. This deeply unsettles the narrator for she begins to see the women all throughout the mall in the food, through the store windows, and the cosmetic counter at JCPenney. She becomes more compassionate and sympathetic to their plight as Petra begins to fade away. When the narrator loses Petra, her grief compels her  to “free” the women in the prom dresses by hacking the dresses to pieces with her shears. Unfortunately, this is futile as the women do not move or escape.

Numerous meanings could be taken from this story: the misogynistic attitude of men and their desire for the “solid” female body, women only having worth when they wear pretty clothes, terrible things only becoming personal when you lose someone to it, the nature of dead-end jobs, the invisibility of people who make products — the list goes on and on. Machado is too good of a writer for this story to have only one answer.

For the most part, “Eight Bites” is not a very fantastical story. Until we learn the consequences of the narrator’s life-changing surgery, it feels as if this story could be set in our own world; plenty of people undergo surgeries to reduce their weight or suppress their appetite, and it’s not completely implausible that a person could only survive on twenty-four bites of food a day. Only when we reach the end of this story does the fantastic element reveal itself: our narrator is now haunted by her own sentient “inner self.” This is a common occurrence in Machado’s stories—they start off normally enough, then throw you for a loop right when you least expect it; “The Husband Stitch” and “The Resident” are two prime examples. “Eight Bites” also reminded me of Steven Millhauser’s “History of a Disturbance,” in which the main character ceases speaking altogether; it is something that feels like it could happen in real life, but also feels just a bit too farfetched to ever actually occur.

While reading “Eight Bites,” I kept trying to guess what the fantastic component of this story would turn out to be, and it got to the point where I was overanalyzing almost every new piece of information, no matter how insignificant it actually was; this is, I think, the sign of a truly exceptional writer–Machado gives you just enough to think that things might not entirely be as they seem, but not enough for you to correctly guess what that fantastic component could be. Another possible interpretation could be that the end result isn’t meant to be the horrific part of this story; rather, it is the fact that our narrator is willing to do anything (including sacrificing her relationship with her daughter) in order to obtain and maintain a specific standard of beauty. In a separate class that I am taking this semester, we learned how monsters in fiction are always metaphorical; in “Eight Bites,” the narrator’s “inner self” is a metaphor for her old self, for all that she has sacrificed in order to get to this point. The true horror of this story comes from the narrator’s own actions and desires, not from her “monster.”

In Steven Millhauser’s “The Tower,” the audience is introduced to a tower that represents that of the Biblical tower of Babel. While we are all aware that the people of Babylon failed to build a tower reaching up to heaven, Millhauser uses the horizontal and vertical world as a tool to present different problems that are relatable to the human experience. One main problem Millhauser focused on was imagethe dire changes in our environment that are starting to mold into normalcy. In addition to this, Millhauser presents the problem (or lack thereof,) of communication, with the exaggeration of stories to sound more appealing than what happened. This relates to how in the human experience we often exaggerate events that we witnessed so that our version of the stories we tell, and our life, appear more interesting. This can be paralleled to the Biblical tower of Babel, where God mixed up the language of the people of Babylon in order to prevent the tower from being built.

Was it possible that the great Tower didn’t actually exist? After all, no one had ever seen the entire structure, which kept vanishing from sight no matter where you stood. Except for a handful of visible bricks, the whole thing was little more than a collection of rumors, longings, dreams, and travelers’ tales. It was less than a memory. The Tower was a prodigious absence, a soaring void, a pit dug upward into the air. It was as if each part of the visible Tower had begun to dissolve under the vast pressure of the invisible parts, operating in every direction.

“The Other Town” is about a town that is being completely replicated in an adjacent town, even down to the smallest details. The odd part is that nobody lives in this replicated town; however, it is frequently visited by residents of the adjoining town. It is compared to a museum during the story.

In spite of these noisy quarrels and harsh attacks, which have plagued us during our entire history, one thing that remains certain: the other town is there. Tirelessly it exercises its powers of attraction even on those who protests against it, and perhaps especially on them. Scarcely a week passes when we don’t make our way, by foot or by car, through the north woods and into the other town, a town so exacty like our own that for a moment a confusion comes over us, before we remember where we are. Then we wander across backyards, nothing details that migjt have escaped our attention, walk along streets thta are just like our streets, except for certain differences, check to see whether the new stop sign has gone up, enter a neighbor’s house to explore a rumor of adultery– the necktie over the clock radio, the blue bra draped over the cordovan loafer– or observe the work of a replicator rearranging chairs, opening a door, placing a cup in the sink. (140)

After reading this passage, I realized how vulnerable this duplicate town made everyone feel. It exposed the simple details of people’s houses, including the extremely intimate moments that are meant to be kept private. Thus, the town begins to watch over every small detail about themselves. They can compare this lingering and worry to the transformation from childhood into adulthood, always being aware and concerned about everything around oneself. But also, being intrigued about what goes on in the lives of others, whereas if you were a child, there would be a naive and innocent misunderstanding of the world around you.

Preoccupied as we are with domestic and finanical cares, we pass through our lives noticing so little of what’s really around us that we might be said to inhabit an invisible town; in the other town, the visible town is seized, we feel compelled to look at things closely, to linger over details that would otherwise fail to exist at all. In this way the other town leads us to a fuller or truer grasp of things. Far from being a childish diverson intended to distract us from more serious concerns, it’s a necessary way stage away from the simplicities of childhood and into the richness of adult understanding. (137-138)

 

Double Take

We are slaves to technology and in Steven Millhauser’s short story “The Other Town,” the nation seems to comment on our TV-dominated lives. In the story, a strange little tale is told about two towns that are exactly alike in nearly every way. They are separated by a small swath of woods that could easily be walked through to the other town. The two towns are described abstractly as the town that has people living there and the town that appears at first sight very empty, but really there are the guards and the replicators. These are individuals whose job it is to make changes to the other town in order to match the main town. It is as if the main town was copied and pasted night next to the original…

In addition, there’s a sense we all have, an elusive but still quite definite sense, which might be called an intuion of absence: the absence of people living in homes, working in stores, conducting the daily life of a town. For of course no one lives in the other town, which exists solely to be visited by us.” (134)

The job of the replicators clearly necessitates “watchers” in the main town, people to record every change and report to the replicators what adjustments must be made. But why? What is Fantastic about this story?

There is no clear beginning, rising action, climax, and denouement. What Millhauser excels at, rather, is raising fascinating and startling questions. For on the surface, “The Other Town” appears to be little more than whimsy, but in our current digital age in which many of us live entirely separate lives–lives in a digital Other Town–it is perhaps it’s a reflection on our lives.

 

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